there is so much emphasis on the physical, so much of our emotional and mental status are neglected. i am always amazed at how little attention is spent on our humanity. we are so caught up with keeping up with social pressures and maintaining outward appearances. we do this to such an extend that we call it 'maintaining a living'.
so many of us are depressed, unhappy or living in a pretentious state. so deep are we rooted in superficiality that we believe so much of the crap that is drilled in our surroundings. even our air and food is synthetic.
its wrong, why can't we change this? why is the 9/5 job the norm, why is capitalism still standing, why is consumption out of control, why do we 'let' all this happen for the so few that benefit, that don't really????
the answer i guess lies in the age long instinct embedded somewhere in us, greed and survival....
how do i make a difference, where can it start, where can i say no?
we live only for a brief period and most of who we are is never discovered. in the huge scope of time, its like a flash of a camera....
Monday, May 31, 2004
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
sheep and aliens
sometimes i stare at my mom and think "am i an alien?"
why are the masses sheep?
why is the article below so obvious, but not many seem to just 'think' this?
isn't this logical?
doesn't this make the most sense?
is common sense not common?
why so few?
am i an alien?
Losing the War on Stupidity
So the pinhead spin on the torture and killing of Iraqi prisoners in Abu Ghraib goes something like "no one apologized to us for 9-11" and "the torture is nothing compared to acts like the beheading of Nick Berg" or worse, "the beheading justifies the torture."
Well. Let us explore how grotesquely simple-minded this "logic" is. Basically, it assumes that Al Qaeda and the Taliban are synonomous with Iraqi civilians; that all the peoples of Central Asia and the Middle East are one monolithic Evil Brown Person. If one of these "people" commits an act of terrorism, the rest are guilty by association. This is the same stupid stereotyping that Islamic radicals engage in when talking about the West. And it is incredibly dangerous.
I shouldn't have to point out that the prisoners in Abu Ghraib aren't the same individuals who murdered Nick Berg -- the Red Cross reported that 70-90% of them were innocent of anything -- but so many Americans seem incapable of even this slight level of complexity of thought.
See War on Stupidity cartoon from 2001.
here is the link:
http://www.people.virginia.edu/~jls6c/slowpokeblog.html
why are the masses sheep?
why is the article below so obvious, but not many seem to just 'think' this?
isn't this logical?
doesn't this make the most sense?
is common sense not common?
why so few?
am i an alien?
Losing the War on Stupidity
So the pinhead spin on the torture and killing of Iraqi prisoners in Abu Ghraib goes something like "no one apologized to us for 9-11" and "the torture is nothing compared to acts like the beheading of Nick Berg" or worse, "the beheading justifies the torture."
Well. Let us explore how grotesquely simple-minded this "logic" is. Basically, it assumes that Al Qaeda and the Taliban are synonomous with Iraqi civilians; that all the peoples of Central Asia and the Middle East are one monolithic Evil Brown Person. If one of these "people" commits an act of terrorism, the rest are guilty by association. This is the same stupid stereotyping that Islamic radicals engage in when talking about the West. And it is incredibly dangerous.
I shouldn't have to point out that the prisoners in Abu Ghraib aren't the same individuals who murdered Nick Berg -- the Red Cross reported that 70-90% of them were innocent of anything -- but so many Americans seem incapable of even this slight level of complexity of thought.
See War on Stupidity cartoon from 2001.
here is the link:
http://www.people.virginia.edu/~jls6c/slowpokeblog.html
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
my bills
i met bill when i was fourteen. everyone warned me about the evil, conniving, two-faced, back-stabbing person. i laughed and understood and saw all the goodness, charm, intelligence, and sometimes even kindness. i wasn't deceived though, and saw also all the evil, conniving, two-faced back-stabbing traits, but it was never done unto me. Until the day it was.
i met bill 2 and fell madly, hopelessly, pubescently, in lust/love who really knows now, until again the thing that could be done but never to me was again done and betrayed.
i married bill 3, and left bill 3 after 12 years.
so after killing my bills, was flogged, died, buried, and on the third day, rose again, i now the battered and cynical but more matured me has somewhat emerged. i am now dating feens...uh...i mean just one:) who's wisdom sometimes exceeds mine...well just a few times...because i'm brilliant...really i am! honest...it takes a genius to detect anyways...
by the way, original bill was not male.
she was a lesson in friendship not 'pantship'.
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another old time fav...lyrics from Sting:
"Fragile"
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
i met bill 2 and fell madly, hopelessly, pubescently, in lust/love who really knows now, until again the thing that could be done but never to me was again done and betrayed.
i married bill 3, and left bill 3 after 12 years.
so after killing my bills, was flogged, died, buried, and on the third day, rose again, i now the battered and cynical but more matured me has somewhat emerged. i am now dating feens...uh...i mean just one:) who's wisdom sometimes exceeds mine...well just a few times...because i'm brilliant...really i am! honest...it takes a genius to detect anyways...
by the way, original bill was not male.
she was a lesson in friendship not 'pantship'.
**********************************************************
another old time fav...lyrics from Sting:
"Fragile"
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
Monday, May 17, 2004
"old man cactus"
love this plant. grin. don't know how to post pics yet...hopeless but learning!
http://www.britannica.com/eb/article?eu=58397&tocid=0&query
"usually Cephalocereus senilis, a columnar species of cactus (family Cactaceae), native to central Mexico. Because of the wisps of whitish hair along its stem, it is a popular potted plant and grows well outdoors in Mediterranean climates. It usually attains 6 m (about 20 feet) before flowering and can grow to twice that height. Other attractive forms…"
http://www.britannica.com/eb/article?eu=58397&tocid=0&query
"usually Cephalocereus senilis, a columnar species of cactus (family Cactaceae), native to central Mexico. Because of the wisps of whitish hair along its stem, it is a popular potted plant and grows well outdoors in Mediterranean climates. It usually attains 6 m (about 20 feet) before flowering and can grow to twice that height. Other attractive forms…"
Thursday, May 13, 2004
'sap'
i'm 'sappy'. you can squeeze it out of me quite easily, but like a lemon there's always more and like one of the root definition for 'sap' - "body fluid (as blood) essential to life, health, or vigor", no matter how i try, to my chagrin, it seems to be a potent part of me. quite annoying i tell you.
this flaw combined with excessive thinking can be extremely confusing. the extensions i conjure up sometimes even take me by surprise.
as i attempt to aspire sanity, i somehow have to rid myself of the untangibles. so here's some:
restlessness of so much unsaid
pent up indescribables
emotions transcribed to language
is a seemly teeth pulling task
as i latch on fiercely
resisting the unknown
this flaw combined with excessive thinking can be extremely confusing. the extensions i conjure up sometimes even take me by surprise.
as i attempt to aspire sanity, i somehow have to rid myself of the untangibles. so here's some:
restlessness of so much unsaid
pent up indescribables
emotions transcribed to language
is a seemly teeth pulling task
as i latch on fiercely
resisting the unknown
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
no time....
No time to transfer thoughts to words lately thus an article from Aquanews:
Physics of Fluids
A multi-institutional research team from the United States has made a startling discovery in the field of aerodynamics.
Wind tunnel tests of scale-model humpback whale flippers have revealed that the scalloped, bumpy flipper is a more efficient wing design than the current model used by the aeronautics industry on airplanes.
The tests show that bump-ridged flippers do not stall as quickly and produce more lift and less drag than sleek flippers of a comparable size.
The study, involving researchers from West Chester University, Duke University and the U.S. Naval Academy, required the creation of two 22-inch-tall scale models of humpback pectoral flippers -- one with the characteristic bumps, called tubercles, and one without.
The performance of the sleek flipper was similar to that of a typical airplane wing. But the tubercle flipper exhibited nearly 8 percent better lift properties, and withstood stall at a 40 percent steeper wind angle. The team was particularly surprised to discover that the flipper with tubercles produced as much as 32 percent lower drag than the sleek flipper.
"The simultaneous achievement of increased lift and reduced drag results in an increase in aerodynamic efficiency," explained Laurens Howle, a fluid dynamics engineer at Duke University and co-author of the study.
Hydrodynamic Flippers
As whales move through the water, the tubercles disrupt the line of pressure against the leading edge of the flippers. The row of tubercles sheers the flow of water and redirects it into the scalloped valley between each tubercle, causing swirling vortices that roll up and over the flipper to actually enhance lift properties.
"The swirling vortices inject momentum into the flow," said Howle. "This injection of momentum keeps the flow attached to the upper surface of the wing and delays stall to higher wind angles."
The purpose of the tubercles on the leading edge of humpback whale flippers has been the source of speculation for some time, said biomechanicist Frank Fish of West Chester University, a co-author of the study. "The idea they improved flipper aerodynamics was so counter to our current doctrine of fluid dynamics, no one had ever analyzed them," he said.
Humpback whales maneuver in the water with surprising agility for 44-foot animals, particularly when they are hunting for food. By exhaling air underwater as they turn in a circle, the whales create a cylindrical wall of bubbles that herd small fish inside. Then they barrel up through the middle of the "bubble net," mouth open wide, to scoop up their prey.
Manmade designs
According to Fish, the scalloped hammerhead shark is the only other marine animal with a similar aerodynamic design. The expanded hammerhead shark head may act like a wing.
The trick now is to figure out how to incorporate the advantage of the tubercle flipper into manmade designs, said Fish.
The research team now plans to perform a systematic engineering investigation of the role of scalloped leading edges on lift increase, drag reduction and stall delay.
"This discovery has potential applications not only to airplane wings but also on the tips of helicopter rotors, airplane propellers and ship rudders," said Howle.
Their findings were published in the May 2004 issue of Physics of Fluids.
Physics of Fluids
A multi-institutional research team from the United States has made a startling discovery in the field of aerodynamics.
Wind tunnel tests of scale-model humpback whale flippers have revealed that the scalloped, bumpy flipper is a more efficient wing design than the current model used by the aeronautics industry on airplanes.
The tests show that bump-ridged flippers do not stall as quickly and produce more lift and less drag than sleek flippers of a comparable size.
The study, involving researchers from West Chester University, Duke University and the U.S. Naval Academy, required the creation of two 22-inch-tall scale models of humpback pectoral flippers -- one with the characteristic bumps, called tubercles, and one without.
The performance of the sleek flipper was similar to that of a typical airplane wing. But the tubercle flipper exhibited nearly 8 percent better lift properties, and withstood stall at a 40 percent steeper wind angle. The team was particularly surprised to discover that the flipper with tubercles produced as much as 32 percent lower drag than the sleek flipper.
"The simultaneous achievement of increased lift and reduced drag results in an increase in aerodynamic efficiency," explained Laurens Howle, a fluid dynamics engineer at Duke University and co-author of the study.
Hydrodynamic Flippers
As whales move through the water, the tubercles disrupt the line of pressure against the leading edge of the flippers. The row of tubercles sheers the flow of water and redirects it into the scalloped valley between each tubercle, causing swirling vortices that roll up and over the flipper to actually enhance lift properties.
"The swirling vortices inject momentum into the flow," said Howle. "This injection of momentum keeps the flow attached to the upper surface of the wing and delays stall to higher wind angles."
The purpose of the tubercles on the leading edge of humpback whale flippers has been the source of speculation for some time, said biomechanicist Frank Fish of West Chester University, a co-author of the study. "The idea they improved flipper aerodynamics was so counter to our current doctrine of fluid dynamics, no one had ever analyzed them," he said.
Humpback whales maneuver in the water with surprising agility for 44-foot animals, particularly when they are hunting for food. By exhaling air underwater as they turn in a circle, the whales create a cylindrical wall of bubbles that herd small fish inside. Then they barrel up through the middle of the "bubble net," mouth open wide, to scoop up their prey.
Manmade designs
According to Fish, the scalloped hammerhead shark is the only other marine animal with a similar aerodynamic design. The expanded hammerhead shark head may act like a wing.
The trick now is to figure out how to incorporate the advantage of the tubercle flipper into manmade designs, said Fish.
The research team now plans to perform a systematic engineering investigation of the role of scalloped leading edges on lift increase, drag reduction and stall delay.
"This discovery has potential applications not only to airplane wings but also on the tips of helicopter rotors, airplane propellers and ship rudders," said Howle.
Their findings were published in the May 2004 issue of Physics of Fluids.
Thursday, May 06, 2004
kindred spirits
people come and people go. a mad rush like traffic in and out of our lives. sometimes a fleeting impression, sometimes leaving a residue of themselves, and sometimes an eternal imprint that becomes more than a part of you.
our senses bring random thoughts that are made more vivid by the emotions they invoke. some remembrances still gnaw at the scars left, sometimes an overheard phrase, song, place, may trigger a hurt still vulnerable or a pain so long ago,almost forgotten.
some memories illuminate your soul with so much endorphins you'd like to burst with bliss, and that warmth quietly spreads like liquid fire, you really can't help but smile.
she was five years old, and she made me smile.
she took my hand, reminisces through years and miles.
simple gestures, i found a kindred spirit
more than a friend, an everlasting glow was lit.
the final episode of the tv series "friends" ends today, a tribute to all the souls that have touched me, loved me, pained me, and made me, me.
our senses bring random thoughts that are made more vivid by the emotions they invoke. some remembrances still gnaw at the scars left, sometimes an overheard phrase, song, place, may trigger a hurt still vulnerable or a pain so long ago,almost forgotten.
some memories illuminate your soul with so much endorphins you'd like to burst with bliss, and that warmth quietly spreads like liquid fire, you really can't help but smile.
she was five years old, and she made me smile.
she took my hand, reminisces through years and miles.
simple gestures, i found a kindred spirit
more than a friend, an everlasting glow was lit.
the final episode of the tv series "friends" ends today, a tribute to all the souls that have touched me, loved me, pained me, and made me, me.
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
peter rabbit day
"A budget is just a method of worrying before you spend money, as well as afterward."
- Anonymous
peter rabbit day
rain is pounding down quite furiously. reminds me of the children classic videos that we still watch from time to time.
soaking wet, coming in from the new rain, a fire burning, a pot of old fashion hot english tea brewing, scents of vanilla and lavender, fresh scones, bread and clotted cheese, and an antique wood table and chair to finish all the neglected letter writings to loved ones afar....
or just to cozy up in an oversized chair with a heavy warm blanket, next to a bay window, listening to the rain storm drowned in a collection of fav books....humm....
listen to the wind, it tell an ancient story regurgitated over and over time, of souls aching for so much more that they can contain. never comprehending, forever hungry. the secret of peace infinite is only a passing fancy, captured in dreams scarcely.... ingrained in humanity, is the restlessness for pain.......
- Anonymous
peter rabbit day
rain is pounding down quite furiously. reminds me of the children classic videos that we still watch from time to time.
soaking wet, coming in from the new rain, a fire burning, a pot of old fashion hot english tea brewing, scents of vanilla and lavender, fresh scones, bread and clotted cheese, and an antique wood table and chair to finish all the neglected letter writings to loved ones afar....
or just to cozy up in an oversized chair with a heavy warm blanket, next to a bay window, listening to the rain storm drowned in a collection of fav books....humm....
listen to the wind, it tell an ancient story regurgitated over and over time, of souls aching for so much more that they can contain. never comprehending, forever hungry. the secret of peace infinite is only a passing fancy, captured in dreams scarcely.... ingrained in humanity, is the restlessness for pain.......
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
hear the silence
there is so much sound...everywhere....
noise keeps safe and nurtures.
chatter, laughter, gasps of surprise, giggles
cars zooming, birds chirping, house talking, all mingles....
don't hear me call out,
guard the ignorance sometimes....
don't hear the strangled emptiness
benighted to the piercing depths of hollowness...
but somewhere in the pool of being
subconscious forces currents of awareness....
and the waves are made known
then all the silence emerge, full blown....
noise keeps safe and nurtures.
chatter, laughter, gasps of surprise, giggles
cars zooming, birds chirping, house talking, all mingles....
don't hear me call out,
guard the ignorance sometimes....
don't hear the strangled emptiness
benighted to the piercing depths of hollowness...
but somewhere in the pool of being
subconscious forces currents of awareness....
and the waves are made known
then all the silence emerge, full blown....
Monday, May 03, 2004
morning with Am
Ambrey and i had coffee and doughnuts at Tim Horton's. she doesn't like to go to daycare early, as the older kids aren't there yet, and that makes her lonesome for me. so we had doughnuts:)
cooking din din yesterday for Anna's birthday belated by a month, exactly a month! Ashti helped with the b-day favours. it was a nice night but i'm tired today.
saw Kill Bill. was definitely my kind of movie. lots of exaggerations to 'think' about which i love.
i'm not grumpy but i'm almost feeling i should be....
lyrics from Depeche Mode one of my fav's still:
Somebody
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....
cooking din din yesterday for Anna's birthday belated by a month, exactly a month! Ashti helped with the b-day favours. it was a nice night but i'm tired today.
saw Kill Bill. was definitely my kind of movie. lots of exaggerations to 'think' about which i love.
i'm not grumpy but i'm almost feeling i should be....
lyrics from Depeche Mode one of my fav's still:
Somebody
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Purging continues....
"Insecurity, ego, lust or stubborness can obscure your better judgment. Sometimes it takes succumbing to them all to realize you won't tolerate such battering again."
i read this in some wellness magazine. i'm awe again at the simple words that somewhat describes how blind i can be or was in the past.
On to the future....it really is quite nice and sunny.
i read this in some wellness magazine. i'm awe again at the simple words that somewhat describes how blind i can be or was in the past.
On to the future....it really is quite nice and sunny.
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