a life lesson, a nice moment, and my grumps

my first born, was hit by a car on thursday. she was quickly taken to childrens hospital. she is ok with a broken fibula and tibia.

it was quite nerve racking as one can imagine. she was crossing a side street after a volleyball game at another school. one of her friend's dad dropped her off from the back of the school to the front where i was parked and tending to our newest. she said she looked quickly and ran across the street where a car made a right turn onto the street and hit her.

the elderly gentleman who hit her was so upset and stay with us and a crowd that had been gathering until the ambulance and police came. we had a lot of help and support, but most of the event was a blur.

this is a lesson for all of us. the street was packed and there was no where that the suv that dropped her off could park. mistake. she got out of the car and crossed behind the suv. mistake. school zone with 30km signage everywhere. mistake.

each of us had a responsibility, each of us knew better. the key element is that we all took responsibility for our parts, a big, but thank goodness not a fatal lesson.

her leg will have to be elevated for a week at least, thus no school, though i'm going to see her teachers about homework. she will not be able to continue volleyball, ballet and soccer, probably for the rest of the season which is very sad for her. brightness though is she's getting pampered with lots of attention, love, wishes, presents etc which helps her very much.

on a brighter time, today, ambrey played against her old burnaby team. she was very happy to have scored 4 goals. she was very nervous the day before, and wanted to do well. her old team was really great, and the group of parents are a very warm and amazing group of people. however, this new club is much nearer for practices and home games, and although the previous coaches were extremely nice, she learned all she could there and was looking for more training. this league is also more in line with what we were looking for.

i'm very grumpy nowadays, with hormones and going through the post pregnancy stages. it's like a roller coaster ride ( i actually love roller coasters but not this one.) one example is my hair is falling out like there's no tomorrow, thank goodness i have gone through this before and have lots of hair in general, because it's a bit unnerving. I won't elaborate on all the other stuff. dan is also working 24/7 and weekends on the latest releases, which has added to my witch-like state..:( i am more house-bound, with more yucky to do's now with the recent event, so just a warning to everyone...i'm a bit volatile...

hmmm

"In the temple of science are many mansions, and various indeed are they that dwell therein and the motives that have led them thither." Einstein

dissonance

i'm an 'experience junky'. i remember being two. (yes really!) i was apparently a very hyperactive child and was in my uncle's workshop when we were visiting my grandparents in Borneo. i was with my cousin rose, she wandered off and i stayed to play with a vice on my uncle's work bench. i somehow managed to loosen it, and instinct told me that it was going to fall. i sat on the ground below it, stuck one foot out, and it came tumbling down on it. the rest of the story was my mother's version of the hospital, cast on my foot, how i could not keep still and it kept coming off...

i think about this incident ever so often, because the memory of it is still quite clear and i'm not sure why. i distinctly remember sitting down and waiting for it to fall on one foot. i tucked the other behind me. part of the reason of my lamenting over this is that footwear is a passion of mine, and i now have a stunned toe and well the rest are just ugly as a result of this.

part of being human is forgetting. it is what helps us through this very complex world. otherwise, i'm not sure how our brain could process each and every moment. we help expand this complexity with computers, inventions, discoveries, and really by simply thinking...anyway, i'm almost at another thought...so back to this, why is the incident so clear? i see it now in slow motion.

so many analogies, but they don't seem 'truthful' to my experience.

this train of thought comes from reading Maria Abagis' blog 'Cycling the Road Less Travelled'. they have such marvelous adventures, and the joy and aliveness of their experiences are amazing. i've always had wanderlust. i'm always smiling when i read. thank you maria:)

africa. i myself have always wanted to go there. i know nothing about africa, i've read some, but like i've read books or clippings about other places, but my craving comes from nowhere that i can logically explain. all i know is i would like to go there someday and see the Serengeti. this place more than any other.

i'm restless today. i'm usually mostly restless in my mind. there are so many things to do each day and i seem to want to do it all:) i don't think i can ever be bored as i don't know how really. mind is too busy.

well, i'm off to the reality of the routine which i love and dislike at the same time. i wouldn't trade it, i just want two of me...well maybe more. i sound very strange, even to me. insanity is the balance of life i say...

well that's the racket of some moments in my mind today.

Usually, terrible things that are done with the excuse that progress requires them are not really progress at all, but just terrible things.
- Russell Baker

dan's 1st home

like a crab out of water

horrible day.

Whatever you may be sure of, be sure of this, that you are dreadfully like other people.
- James Russell Lowell

hormones or something.