Enough

She's sixteen and aware for the first time
It's not enough
It's stifling, lonely, overwhelming
Always searching for that elusive
Where instinct says it is out there
Reality says it's not
But she can't let go, she has seen it
She is confused
Maybe only in dreams
The wanting is burning
Can't let go of an illusion
That has been felt somewhere
Somehow someone.

illusion and ego

i went out alone on my way to my tryst
but who is this me in the dark
i step aside to avoid his presence
but i escape him not
he makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger
he adds his loud voice to every word i utter
he is my own little self my lord
he knows no shame
but I
i am ashame
to come to thy door in his company

- rabindranath tagore

that is real that never changes

- Muktananda

even after all this time
the sun never says to the earth
"You owe Me"

just think what a love like that can do
it lights up the whole world

- Hafiz

random

"from the beginning i had a sense of destiny as if my life was assigned to me by faith and had to be fulfilled, this gave me an inner security and though i could never prove it to myself, it proved itself to me, i did not have this certainty it had me."

let it be

Be.

Grate on full

my thoughts were grateful today for the abundance in my life, but it just takes a drop of dark ink to spread those bitter chemicals. i still cannot be unaffected. It's truly tiring.

i have a beautiful picture though... jack and jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water, jack fell down and broke his crown and jill came tumbling after. recited at bed time by elex.

If you could see the many images in my head. You would laugh and cry and perhaps be a tad horrified.