Somewhere along life's changes...i seemed to have misplaced, lost, neglected, parts of me....
i lost my self confidence, or confidence in self. That youthful blind ignorance i guess now upon reflection, was just that. But nevertheless, it gave me character, bliss and alot of smiles. There once was a time, i sillyly thought i knew everything or could know everything, and everything was within my grasp...if i wanted it to be. And ironically, that was how life was for me, its truly interesting how this works. Think it and 'it' becomes....
Now memories just tease or dare me to ponder on all the illusions i had. i now recognize them as illusions...i tell you, ignorance is bliss...my bliss...and really i wonder sometimes.......
So i'm having lots of 'off' days....so much clutter in this head of 'mind', just when i 'think' i've organized it, more junk invades me...i tell you, stupidity is bliss...really...let me define....
If you know not better, than now is better and the now is fully appreciated...thus, the less one knows, the less confusing, the less confusing, the more in now we are...the more in now we are...bliss!
Ok i don't even believe me...its sad how i want to know it all and its sad how sad reality is, or how i make reality it...ok enough.
red pill, blue pill, red pill, blue pill....I always liked the colour blue....
But i am masochistic .....
red pill, blue pill, red pill.......
