balance

i feel balanced lately, however anything and everything can change this. i blink and some vibe, thought, will cause an uneasiness again. i don't remember being this way before, either that, or i had rose coloured glasses on my whole life before.

balanced makes me feel that its really all an illusion, which again leads to the uncomfortable. i take comfort in that. gosh the dichotomy of self.

just a moment ago, i was serene and balanced. my remembrances of the recent yesterdays, were busy but somewhat satisfying. i now feel estranged again. strange...

i need peace in my own skin.

onto another thought, i got a call from an employment agency for payroll contract work. apparently some of these agencies keep resumes forever. its been over a year and a half at least. always good to know what's out there.

so much to do, personal...my list:
1. Baptism - cake,present, card, food, favours, decorations
2. Mom's B-day - cake, buy food, cook food, favours, present, card.
3. Wedding - present, card, dress, pack, lists.
4. Babies - present, card.
5. Father's Day - cards, presents, lunch.
6. Birthday - dinner, present, card.
7. Going away - present making
8. Summer Camps - July done, August prep.

that's for june plus the usual daily, monthly survival thingies...

nevermind the work list...

cheers its Friday!